If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Uh oh, uh oh
Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time
And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had, just enough time
So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done
A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time
So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
I'll keep listen & listen to this song...I never thought that this song would be my theme song for now...I keep asking myself 'what happen if I die young?' I wonder what would happen to my family, my friends and mostly my loved ones....
I....I realized I had this thing since 21 June 2011...and it is the reason I cry every night to my sleep...It's not that I'm afraid but my thought mostly for my family & my loved ones...suddenly everything changed...my mom really cared for me until she came to see me...For now, I keep asking God 'why me?' and 'why now?'...I keep telling myself that someone else maybe unlucky than me but you wouldn't understand if your not in my shoes...
Everyday I try to laugh & smile & being the same girl I always be...but you don't know the pain I hide inside...Everyday I will looked at the ultrasound picture and pray that one day it will go away and disappear...
Last night I text my mom that I am so afraid for the test this 16 Aug...then she replied me,
"Compare to me, that is a small cut for you, but just remember my cut is longer & deeper when I give birth to your sister & brother through cesarean...Just trust in God..."
What if someone you love died in an accident? How would you react? Will you believe it? What if, when the accident happens you was waiting for him/her to come home? What if the last message or call from him/her telling you that he loves you forever and wants you to wait for him to come home? How would you react? What if that time you were on the road with him/her during the accident, but you are the survivor not him? What would you do? What would you do?!! How much would you do to grieving and keep surviving?
What if someone you love is diagnosed with cancer? How would you react? Will you believe it? Will you be his/her side by that time? Will you be there for him/her or do you leave him/her when you knows it? If him/her unmarried and have cancer, will you still marry him/her? How much would you love him/her? How much would you do to save him/her? How much you can sacrifice your energy, your time, your money, your everything? Will you keep supporting him/her and tell him/her that everything will be alright?
What if someone you love being murdered? How would you react? Do you believe in it? Will you still hug that body when you saw it? How much can you hold the grief? Will you find the murderer? How far would you go? How much will you sacrifice? What if the murderer is closer than you think?
What if.................
I'm sorry if this post have so much sensitivity issues...but you have to face it....this is my"what if......"question that pops into my mind every time before I close my eyes to sleep...what if....what if....I'm a bit negative-thinker sometimes & over-analyzed situations...but that helps me to get through this life....because every time I think positive, some of it slips away....Do you have the answers to each of the questions above? NO!...unless it happens to you....
Every time I think of my"what if" questions, I will cry...then I will pray so that people I love would be bless by the Lord and being taken care of...
But still I say to you keep the positive thinking and enjoy your life to the fullest....and keep praying... :))
actually this songs originally featuring Park Bom from 2NE1.....The embed code for the HD video was disabled by the uploader...huhu...T___T...NEVER MIND...You can click here for the video....Below got 2 songs from GD (G-DRAGON) & T.O.P with the song High High...then after that you can watch the live performance of Oh Yeah featuring miss super cute-barbie-like Park Bom... :))) enjoy watching...
P/S: I'm so gonna die watchin TOP...TOP dear will you be my lover??? :)) <3 <3 <3 neeeeeeee..... :PPPPP
Sooner or later everybody will get tired of waiting...Waiting for that one guy/girl to realize that, “I would’ve treated her/him right. I would’ve been there for her/him.. like I always am, when nobody else is. I would’ve done my best to make her/him happy and so much more. Only if she/he noticed...” Honestly, waiting for somebody and knowing that things will never happen between them, like a relationship, is hard...Believing and thinking positively is how they handle the pain, hoping that maybe one day things will come true...The pain of seeing that one guy/girl “talking” to another person or being with another person, it hurts, it really does. Once you let go, the pain goes away....eventually.....“I’m done waiting..."
She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free Catching me in places that I knew I should'nt be Every other day I crossed the line I didn't mean to be so bad I never thought you would become the friend I never had
Back then I didn't know why Why you were misunderstood So now I see through your eyes All that you did was love
Mama I love you, Mama I care Mama I love you, Mama my friend, You're my friend I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now Every little thing you said and did was right for me I had a lot of to think about,about the way I usedto be Never had a sense of my responsibility
Back then I didn't know why Why you were misunderstood So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love
Mama, I love you, Mama, I care Mama, I love you, Mama ,my friend, You're my friend
But now I'm sure I know why, Why you were misunderstood So now I see through your eyes All I can give you is love is love Mama, I love you, Mama, I care Mama, I love you. Mama, my friend,You're my friend Mama, I love you, Mama, I care Mama, I love you, Mama, my friend, You're my friend.......
"I'm beautiful in my way 'Cause God makes no mistakes
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way..."
akhirnya aku telah mendapat inspirasi... :))
"There's nothing wrong with loving who you are"...YESS!!! I 100% AGREE!!! Memang MJ jeles gak kadang2 nampak org lain lebih cantik lebih slimmer & tinggi dari MJ...MJ pun nk juga jadi cantik...sedaya upaya nak kuruskan badan tapi x disiplin jugak...hurmmm.... yess, you have to love yourself...I have to love myself...even bf MJ pun da terima MJ dengan seadanya...hehe... :)) syukurlaa...
then MJ dengar la lagu Lady Gaga nie...x ramai org minat Lady Gaga ni sebab lagu dia, video klip dia n pemakaian dia yg bagi mereka tak senonoh...(bukan nak mengumpat dia kat cni k?)...just bagi MJ, she's just a person yang bekerja sebagai penyanyi dan penghibur yang hadir dengan perwatakan yang berbeza dari orang lain...sebab apa dia jadi famous??? sebab dia pelik & korang x suka dia...x suka tapi tgok juga kn? :P hahaha...lagu dia best ape... :P dia bukan kesah pun korang suka ke x... :P
"Don't be a drag -Just be a queen"
maksudnya, jadi lah ratu tapi bukan ratu yang drag...hahaha... :P (malas ku nak ungkapkan...:P) so dalam post ni juga MJ nak gtau laa...MJ born this way... :)) MJ yang anda kenal ini akan sentiasa jadi MJ yang kamu kenal...MJ yang pendiam tapi dengan kengkawan sgt2 aktif & suka bt lawak...:)) MJ yang panas baran tapi hati baik...chewaaaaaaaaa... :P MJ yang pelupa & pura2 lupa...hahaha....MJ yang jahat tapi sekadar jahat kat mulut jer...hehehe...byklaaa....apa yg penting, org yg kenal MJ lama memang da tau MJ ni jenis yang macam mana kn? :)) kn? kn?
"Don't be a drag, just be a queen
Whether you're broke or evergreen
You're black, white, beige, chola descent
You're Lebanese, you're orient
Whether life's disabilities
Left you outcast, bullied, or teased
Rejoice and love yourself today
'cause baby you were born this way
No matter gay, straight, or bi,
lesbian, transgendered life,
I'm on the right track baby,
I was born to survive...
No matter black, white or beige
Chola or orient made,
I'm on the right track baby,
I was born to be brave..."
remember that folks... :)) No matter what, be true to yourself...No pretending, no fake personality...okay? I am born this way...God made me this way...If you don't like me, that's your problem... :P
"Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams. If you're wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake up and tell you that it doesn't love you anymore."
— Lady Gaga
Full denture bla bla bla full denture...work...work...work... Am I supposed to get a break for my coming mid-sem exam??? How am I supposed to study now??? I'm so gonna get migrain...MASSIVE MIGRAIN!!!! I have 3 full denture set to be finish and a not-sure partial case...GOSH!!! KILL ME!!! Senior year really drive me insane....!!!! FFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!
So glad my ortho Roberts Retractor just finished & I already invest my metal crown....(have to sneak time for building up porcelain :P)
Ohhh God!!! Bless me in everything I do...huhuhuhu~~~~ May all of my work will be done shortly...
I'm a bit sad for not having the opportunity to go to this conference yet I'm still non-graduate-DT so far...haha... :P but it's okay...I went to this conference yesterday but only to check out some tools for my works...found some few cool stuff...i need few burs...i really want that whole set of burs... :(( but I only get few acrylic burs, round & fissure burs...and with that costs me RM50...DAMN IT!!! Wish can buy that round pliers but no $$$$$$....uwaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........
hello...hello...hello...anybody home???? sorry sorry sorry da lama sgt x update blog nie...huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuh....agak lama juga yerr....hehehe....MJ kembali da nie...jgn risau...hah?? kemana menghilang...alololo...xda ilang2 laaa...cuma maintenace blog ni sikit2.... :)) hehehehe...
oh yaa... :)) saja jak mo wat kecoh cni.....ok starting this MAY, i will surely keep updating my blog... :)) super hardcore blogger will be here... :P
I'm sure a lot of people know this ritual but some goes to church accept this ritual without knowing a thing...here are some information about Ash Wednesday...(for Christians only)...
Ash Wednesday, in thecalendar ofWestern Christianity and occurs 46 days beforeEaster,marks the beginning of the Season of Lent. It is a season of penance, reflection, and fasting which prepares us for Christ's Resurrection on Easter Sunday, through which we attain redemption.
According to theCanonical gospelsofMatthew,MarkandLuke,Jesusspent forty days fasting in the desert before the beginning of hispublic ministry, during which heendured temptationbySatan. Ash Wednesday marks the beginning of this forty day liturgical period of prayer and fasting.
Ash Wednesday derives its name from the practice of placing ashes on the foreheads of adherents as a sign of mourning andrepentancetoGod. The ashes used are typically gathered after the palms from the previous year'sPalm Sundayare burned.
At Masses, ashes are imposed on the foreheads of the faithful. Thepriest, marks the forehead of each participant with black ashes in the shape of a cross, which the worshipper traditionally retains until it wears off. The act echoes the ancientNear Easterntradition of throwing ashes over one's head to signifyrepentance beforeGod(as related in theBible). The priest or minister says one of the following when applying the ashes:
'Remember that thou art dust, and to dust thou shalt return'
