suddenly feel lonely....then angry...y???

currently listening to MLTR - Out Of The Blue....then i started to cry...again....

i just need somebody to talk to....

my bf sleep already...i have no companion...

no ring...no sms...nothing...

my hp silent...better off it...

where are my friends??

miss them so much...

then, people arguing....friends arguing each other...

moreover, there are my friends....

why small matter become bigger???

why all the bad language started to blow???

why keep blaming on each other???

can u just stop it & forgive each other???

strange....

please stop it....

please...

back to my loneliness....it's 3:05 a.m...

cannot sleep...dont know what to do...

God, help me....

i dont care what u say.....

just a story of mine i want to share with u all....

im in love with a guy named Lawrence Safenus...maybe u know him, maybe u don't...but I LOVE HIM...u know why i love him?? I don't know...my heart tell me to...he's a good guy though...so caring, so gentle, so comfort when im with him...

i knew him from iMesh last year...chatting & texting...until 11 January 2009 i met him at KL Sentral...that's what called JODOH...
i guess...i never thought i would come to KL & meet him & study in the same college together (different course)...how co-inccident is that??

he's short...smaller than me...totally different from the list of my What I Want In A Guy...but what makes him so special to me is i am really comfortable when im with him... & he love me so much...i am really grateful & thankful to God coz sending him to me...

i cry when he's not around...i feel sad coz he's about to finish his study soon & leave me alone here...then no one will taking care of me anymore...everything we do, we do it together...we go anywhere & spending a lot of time together...i share my problems with him & he's a good listener...not all guy can be a good listener as him...

im about to get 22 this Dec...im getting older...i used to chat with guys & go out with them...cant count how many of them...more than u do...i realised it takes only one man to win my heart among all the guys i've been with...

how rich a man could be or how good looking he is, it doesn't matter at all...as long as he can get good job & love me 'til i get older then it matter...a good married takes both partner to fall in love everytime they look to each others eyes...

remember my friends...someday u will agree with me & read this post over again...find a man that really can show inside of you...who knows he might be just in front of u...

i dont care what u said to us...we dont fit or suitable to each other or what, i dont care... try to fix your eyes then...u got problem...if u can change of what u see, try to change yourself...quit talking about others relationship...save your own 1st...

to Lawrence, thank you for saving my heart...i pray for our relationship & hope u do too...

I LOVE YOU...and i always be....