Rumourss~~

i'm not interested on your bf...!!! he is the one looking for me...where were you tht time?? FYI, we were just friends okayy...i know boundaries...he is your bf so take good eyes on him...i mean BOTH EYES..!! if u have taken good care of him then y wud he kept looking for me?? i know he's just playing & joking so deal with it...i am joking too~~~ we're not even making out...pleaseeeeee~~~!!! just a few jokes u taught tht he is cheated on u....chill out~~~ i'm not desperate to have your bf...i treat all guys the same except for my own bf...so please stop this stupid stories of u.......i'm not the type of girl tht like to ruin other peoples happiness...i got my own life to bother...

It feels icky to sense that someone has an unfavorable impression of you..Don't take the blame for them not liking you..Some people, as you know, have shitty taste..No one is universally adored..

Your options are:CHANGE OR GET OVER IT...

and you don't need to change..

So from now on remind yourself:

I don't need everyone's approval...

this is me....so what??

aku suda penat melayan drama…penat melayan perasaan, penat menjaga hati & perasaan org sekeliling, penat menahan emosi, penat mental & fizikal, penat tersenyum paksa & berlagak happy…sgt2 penat!! apakah aku selama ini menjadi hipokrit?? selama ini hanya menipu diri sendiri??? sedangkan aku telah berusaha menjadi yang terbaik untuk semua org…apa salah aku??!!! aku jahat?? semua orang pun jahat…semua org pun pernah memaki…tapi kenapa membenci aku?? kenapa semua org layan aku begini?? kalau x nak kawan, x paksa…nak kawan biarlah ikhlas dari hati…tapi jangan lah mengutuk aku…aku ada hidup aku gak…ada kawan2 yg lain…

utk sekian harinya aku merintih & menangis cuba memahami apa yg sebenarnya berlaku…aku berlagak tenang kerana x nak campuradukkan peribadi dgn kerja…aku cuba hasilkan kerja yg terbaik tpi x pernah dihargai….utk apa lg aku disini?? aku berubah menjadi seseorg yg bukan aku……..

tapi kalau aku bangkit, aku pasti bangkit menjadi seorg yg lebih kuat & tabah menghadapi dugaan…….cuma aku perlukan masa….

Is it love???

Alkisah laa satu lelaki dlm fb me nie...muda setahun dr me...lma da dia add dgn me & pernah gak tya me single ke x..pastue minta no. fon..me pun bglaa...alaa saja jakk...sebab dia ni cute gakk~~ ^___^ tapi sayangnya dah ada anak sorg...still baby lagi...emaknya xtau pegi mana~~~ pelik kann?? never mind laa...tu hal peribadi dia...xnk komen...asal on9 je mmg kiteorg chat...kalau x on9 kteorg sms...mcm tu je la...then ader dlm masa tu me xder kdt da agk lama so me jrg la sms dgn dia...lgpun dia dah jrg on9...so mls la nk kaco...bukanlah me nk simpan angan2 nk jd kapel dia...juz nk hang out jerr....lgpun bila me balik papar nt kira2 nk ajak kuar minum camtu...

hurmmm...yang sedihnya ari nie...me dah dpt tau yg dia dah ada gf...huhu~~~ tiba2 hati ni rasa pedih sgt2!! aikk?? aphal?? me simpan hati ker kat dia???? pelik2!! tapi betul hati ni rasa mcm kehilangan lakk...kecewa tiba2 mcm org putus cinta...hahaha~~~ entahla apa nk jd dgn me ni...jeles kott??? hahahah~~~

laaaa~~~ me doakan lah moga mereka berdua tu bahagia ek?? ^__^

hingga ke anak cucu cicit..me xnk ganggu la hubungan org...sbb me faham aper rasanya lau hubungan sendiri diganggu kan??

wahai hati...berserahlaa...hilangkanlah rasa2 yg x sepatutnya berada di hati ini...

The Only Exception...

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Ohh---

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing

by Paramore......

Cry On My Shoulder by Deutschland Sucht Den Superstar

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you wait for love and you're alone
If you call your friends nobody's home

You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life they are free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone
Who cares for you
If you're feeling sad
Your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh, let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh, just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are gettin' cold and blue
When the days are gettin' hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone
Who cares for you
If you're feeling sad
Your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone
Who cares for you
If you're feeling sad
Your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

What real love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What love can do
Love can do

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what i scared the most is happening...anytime now...

"God, please help me handle this situation...You know how much i need You right now...Only You can be my good listener & calm me down....Please save my family from any harm & always blessed them for i am so missing them & love them so much...This i ask through Jesus Christ, Our Lord..Amen..."

I will try my best to defend my family....

Nothing can bring us down....

I really hope that miracle may happen to us...

I REALLY HOPE...~~~

They don't know me....

i realised something is wrong here...i thought this year would be a better year for me...but everything happened so fast...this is a year full of sadness...more sadness than happiness...;((

i broked up with Lawrence last month....reason??? both of us!! cannot compromise each other...EGO!! it's about trust!! how to keep a relationship if u don't trust each other???!! BULL SHIT!!!

but, he still my bestfriend though...i shared all my sadness & happiness with him throughout the year with him...He's really a good listener...& I LOVE HIM SO MUCHH~!!! i still hope one day we can be together if ada JODOH laa~~~

then my friends....

some of them seems to avoiding me...i don't know why...did i do something?? did i behave wrongly?? did i say something that hurt them?? they once said 'FRIENDS TELLS THE TRUTH EVEN DO IT HURTS'...but they don't...they just leave me like that...clueless...

if they don't want to be my friends it's okay...i don't want either...but don't talk behind me as i am guilty of a crime...i am a normal human being just like u...i can get angry, sad n happy...i eat & drink...n i didn't charge anyone for being my friend...

i want u to know that i am a very sensitive person..i can cry easy...i like to be friends with all of u, no condition, no rules...as long as u ikhlass....u know how i feel when u done this to me?? it feels so terrible & so heart-broken...have u ever see me cry at midnight?? have u ever talk to me if i had a problem?? no!! all u know is being fake with me all the time...the fake smile, the fake greeting, YOUR FRIENDSHIP IS A FAKE TOTALLY!!! i think u don't deserve to be my friend...all u know is being nice in front of me & talk bad about me with your friends...laughing at me & make jokes about me right?? (bguss la lau ko taww dia blg dlm hati...)

plus, you're not good enough...u maybe have pretty face but bad behaviour...if i were a boy i won't choose u...& your not smart either...sorry but it's the truth...TRUTH ALWAYS HURT~~!!!

enough now...i need a rest...i need to calm down...

i'm here because of my family...i have to study & get good grade so my job later would be easier...

i'm not playing around anymore...i have to be serious...nothing matters more than my family...i'm thinking of my sick father & my hardworking mum...even more, my lil sister & brother...how are they doing?? i need to make a call soon...hang on....;((

PLEASE....SOMEBODY SAVE ME....

His name is Cory.....

10 April 2010...

KL SENTRAL - 11 a.m

i met my Cory today....finally....

since March we haven' meet yet....he's in Klang, study for Medical Assistant course.....

told him to ride KTM & met at KL SENTRAL....

OMG~~!! my heart is beating so so fast....

i miss him for years......i called him & search for him...

he stood there in front of me.....

klik...& then i ran to him n hug him...

I MISS HIM SOOOOOOOOO MUCHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

^_____________^

then we go lunch & stuff....

CENTRAL MARKET - 12 p.m

jln2 jer......;))

KLCC - 2 p.m

we go dating....

lepak at taman behind KLCC...

watching people & chat about ourself...

our memories....

we look to each others eyes & still found,

hopes & dreams....

CENTRAL MARKET - 4 p.m

get home...headed different station...

;((

yet,

I HEART CORY....

After such a long time.............09/04/10....

doiiiiiiii~~~~ bru active balik blog nie....sory guys lama menyepi!!!!! ;))

MJ IS BACK~~!!!!!!!