Never Let This Go...

Do you ever feel when you really love somebody but you can't be with him anymore? It's not like he's died but you just think he's not the one for you anymore..You really like him, you really do and you've been together for many years but the relationship you had just went on and off..He's your biggest crush, that eyes, that smile, that face never fails to makes your heart melt each time you look at him and you willing to give everything just to be with him..I'm sure that figure crossed your mind just now..

Yeah, same like me..I'd been sacrifice everything just to be with this guy yet he gave me hope but killing it at the same time!!! For God's sake, I really want to be with this guy so much! I never forget our first met, his letters, his drawings, his texts, his voice while we on the call, his kisses, his touch, secrets and stuff only we knew..I miss all that! :((

Test by test...Distance become a major test..We are so close yet so far..His attitude changed me..Surroundings changed me and so do my heart..He left me hangover but he still said he loves me..How can I live with you so far and live with just few calls and texts from you? It tortures me so much! so much! that I think I had to move on...

So, I did..I tried to break free from this relationship..I had to move on and leave you..We can never get through this if the only one that struggle to save this relationship is only me! I deserved someone that can makes me happy..Someone that can makes me feel safe and never leaves me..You know throughout this searches I have been a bad girl, pathetic loser craving for attention, care and a piece of love...Without you, I free but suffer because I have been rely on you for many years that took me so hard to stand up on my feet again...Life offers me so much option so I choose to go.....

Now, I'm happy with someone new I met back at 2010...I think he's the one that I would like to spend my life with...Hopefully...

After all this time, living without you makes me forget about you less and less, but still there will be a time I think about you...Then, I found you  in Facebook..My heart skips a beat..You want me to add you, but even so nothing we can do anymore...I'm a bit jealous when you comment or like other girls pic or stat but guess that just you then...You haven't change and I'm glad I'm no longer with you..I don't want to share you but you're not belong to me anymore...I'm the one that let you go and pay the price so you can deserve someone better than me...

You're my God's precious gift...I will never forget you forever...Our 10 years of acquaintances, taught me lot of things...I really miss all the time we had together and I'm so glad we could be friends now...You willing to forgive me and I forgive you too...No matter how painful for me to deal with this heart ache, I still love you past, present and future...


You may found someone smarter, prettier than me, the one that can touch you longer than me, but I am your sweetest memories...You can't never replaces me....

p/s: if you wanna know who's the guy, click here...