15.12.10 - My Brother, Melvin's 11th Birthday

special page for my lil bro...

(lambat hupdate blog...hihihi...sorry guys...:P)

p/s: salah eja nama...smpi rumah bru perasan...xpelaaarrr...

my lil bro & lil sis...

blow the candles of 11...

yeahhh...momom kek!!!

meh kakak cuap u....muahhh...love my bro!!

with my beloved dad...

my dearest family!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO MELVIN!!!
WE LOVE YOU!!!

Every Family Has Problems...

I promise myself I would never tell anything about personal matters here especially regarding my family problem but I guess I don't know where to go...

Some people never understood what was going on with our family...Since Nov 2008, our life have changed completely...totally changed! Everything happens so fast! No, no one was dead or sick...Just a case involving my dad...I don't know who to believe, who to depend on, who to point my finger at, who will care about us? Even our closest relatives backstabbing! Accuse my dad, judging him without even have a prove and understand my dad's condition...He's sick you know! Fuck you who call yourself a family!

You wouldn't even care last time when my family were very poor once upon a time...How hard our life at that moment...I still remember going to school with no money, no new uniform, no books...Even our house was about to sell off! FUCK!

How hard my dad to work by himself; when I woke up in the morning he's already in the paddy field & back to home for dinner!
How about you? Have you ever been in that kind of life?

I hate you & your family because you guys were too proud of yourself...You think you have car, you have big house, you have money then you can control me & my family? Hell yeah bitch! Who's house is bigger now? Who have big cars? I don't mean to boast but it's the truth! I hate your mom once upon a time because she's spoke some unkind words to me & I still have that words in mind...But you know what? I have what you guys don't have; FORGIVENESS!

Our family maybe didn't go to church as often as you do...But we don't have to show ourselves going to church just to show off that we are going to church...Get it? God only knows why...How my dad really miss to go church but didn't have a chance...He just said to us that God is always in our heart...Pray there! It's not that I don't like to go church in this village but I feel shy...No one would even talk to me and call me 'sombong n stuff...' I feel ache! How am I supposed to pray like that? How I miss Jesus Christ so much in my life?

I'm not sure how much do you know & heard about my family, because we don't give a damn! If my dad is really guilty in this case then let the judge speaks...We will accept the fact...But if he's innocent, then SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!

You can hurt me but if you hurt my family, I'll show you what hurt is....I may be a tough chick, but I'm a girl that always wish for a happy ending too...I don't mean to get enemy here...just so you know...

'Lord, I know I have been a bad girl...That's because I have suffer so much, it turns me this way; tough, stronger & rude...Because I don't want to be played anymore...Dear Lord, please save my family from anything harm, sickness & tragedy...I love them so much that I would rather die than losing them...This I ask through Jesus Christ, our Lord...
Amen.......'

My Wig...hihi...^_^...

just RM 25 only....
hihihi....gotchaaaa.... :P

'Like' Page in Facebook...

just created a page for my blog...laaa...
just for fun only....hihi...
i didn't put to much hope for people to like this page...
it's free & pls feel free to like or unlike...haha...

just type Mashiry MJ on your facebook search tab...
you'll find me there...press like...hehe...
thanks...^_^...

peace...

I'm sorry...

I understand that I'm not a perfect girl...Who does?
I'm sorry for acting childish..I'm sorry for hurting you..I don't hate you..I still love you..But loving a person doesn't mean we have to own them..I'm so sorry for letting you down & making you cry..I know it's hard..Sorry for being such a bad girl & ignoring you a lot..It's just, things suddenly changed..

I know you love me..I know you're not lying about your feelings for me..Even if you lie, please don't tell me it's lies because I believe it...

I don't care what people said about you but I love you the way you are..I know maybe you feel ashamed because of what I've done..I'm sorry, I know you're disappointed..

But still, we are cousin..I hope we can get back to normal again..I miss the old us..I miss you..Hope we can be crazy friend again..Yes, I've found someone new & I love him..so did you..She's pretty btw.. If destiny bring us together in the future, we we're meant to be..IF..^_^..


I MAY REGRET THE WAY WE ENDED,
BUT I DON'T REGRET WHAT WE HAD...

cheer up!!! FRIENDS?

p/s: btw, I'm a bit jealous...:((

2NE1 - Go Away

Introducing my new Barbie eye contact lenses...

I just bought this contact lenses for RM45 per pair at Berjaya Times Square...
it is made from Japan & can wear for a year...

my eyes look bigger...!!!

^_^

Sweet Dream...

Every girl goes though this. Late at night when everyone else is asleep , we stay up to think about all our “what if ” questions . All the boys we could have dated, all the times where we could have saved a relationship , all the times where our heart didn’t have to been broken by someone else. We feel like its our fault that we couldn’t hold together a relationship for a couple of weeks when some people could hold one up for months and even years. We think there’s something wrong with us , we think we’re not good enough , but truly every single one of us are beautiful. We are the people that live through every single day with a smile on our face even though it’s sometimes fake , we hide our scars , both inside and outside because we don’t want our friends to worry. We pick up the broken pieces of our heart because there’s not always going to be a guy to do it for us .

This is for every single girl that been through even one of these, guess what? You are beautiful don’t ever forget that. ♥

hahaha....apa ni mj,xpenat ke jwb2 soalan org... g mana exam??

haha...xkn penat nyer...^_^...huhu...exam??? tak tau la nk ckp mcm mana.. :(( berserah jer lar...

Ask me anything..i will answer you...

Press Play...

2NE1 - It Hurts (아파) English Version *cover by MoA*

Think of that time not long ago
All those days we spent alone
Walking hand in and hand and never letting them go
But now you're into someone new
And I can't forgive you
For making all those promises that will never come true

Tell me now where did our love go
Tell me now I've got the right to know
Tell me how you can stand the way you're hurting me so oh oh
Tell me if you ever change your mind
Tell me if you wanna make it right
Am I the only one hurt tonight?

Oh baby, why don't you care?
Whatever happens to me you won't be there
And I know wherever we go
We'll be apart, apart, apart

Can't you see what you have done to the girl that you adored
I used to touch the sky but now I'm down to the floor
I gave my everything to you
And we both know that whoever you replace me with
She'll never love you like I do

Tell me now where did our love go
Tell me now I've got the right to know
Tell me how you can stand the way you're hurting me so oh oh-oh
Tell me if you ever change your mind
Tell me if you wanna make it right
Am I the only one hurt tonight?

Oh baby, why don't you care?
Whatever happens to me you wont be there
And I know wherever we'll go
We'll be apart, apart, apart

You're no longer the man you used to be
Cause the man that I loved wasn't cruel to me
He'd never hurt me so

Now I'm on my knees, as you watch me cry
You just stand there calm, all you do is sigh
No way, I can't recognize
You're not mine anymore

Can't you come back to me?
Just the way you used to be?
Can't you come back to me?
Just the way that you used to be?

Can't you come back to me?
The way you used to be?
Can't you come back to me?
Can't you bring your love back to me?

Oh, oh my baby, why don't you care?!
Whatever happens to me you won't be there
And I know wherever we'll go
We'll be apart, apart, apart
Apart, apart, apart, apart

Download mp3: http://www.box.net/shared/94pf0n6mqv

MY EXAM TIMETABLE....hell yeah...

DAMN EXAMS!!!!

MAKES ME NERVOUS!!!

WISH ME LUCK GUYS!!!

2NE1 - It Hurts

i listen to this song over and over again...
he will never know how much it hurts me...

Translation

[CL]
You wear the shoes I gave you and walk along the streets with her
As if it were nothing, you kiss her
You spray the cologne I gave you and embrace her
You'll probably repeat those promises you made to me with her

[Minzy]
It seems that we're already too late
Has our love already ended
Please at least say anything to me
We truly loved each other, can't turn back?

[Dara] I'm the only one hurting tonight

[Bom]
Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy]
You look at my tears as if it were nothing
You continue to talk calmly again
[CL] You told me cruely that you couldn't deny
That you had absolutely no attachments or regrets

[Bom]
Are we already too late? Is our love over?
Even if it's a lie, please tell me it isn't so
I can do better now, though we can't meet again

[Dara] I'm the only one in pain tonight

[CL]
Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy]
You're no longer your old self
[CL]
Because the you I loved
And the you now are so different
[Dara]
Are you that shocked?
I just stood and cried
Watching you become further away
[Bom]
No way, I can't recognize
You're not mine anymore

[Dara]
Did you have to change?
Can't you come back?
Did you really have to change?
Can't you come back?

Did you have to change?
Can't you come back?
Why did you have to change?
Can't you keep loving me?

[Bom]
Oh, is this the end?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you

[Minzy]
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy]
It hurts, it hurts

[CL]
It hurts, it hurts

YOU ARE UGLY!!!

How do you react when someone calls you UGLY???

YOU ARE UGLY!!!

ANSWER:

I guess everyone has their right to express their own opinion, no matter how pointless. But i don't understand why you need to tell me this. Yes, I know I'm not the prettiest person & I don't claim to be & I am greatly aware of this fact so thank you for lowering my self esteem even more...

But I tell you something that gets me through each day and gives me motivation to actually get up in the morning. I say to myself that I am a good person, I'm kind, I'm funny and I love being my self. Yes, it would be so nice to be called gorgeous all the time but I don't & that's okay because I personally think it's better to be a person that has good personality & aware of other people's feelings which is something you LACK!

A Day at Genting Highlands...

07/11/2010

me & my dear went to Genting Highlands...
the famous theme park in Malaysia...

just arrived...

see..it's kinda foggy here...and really cold...fuh~~

us inside the Snow World...
really cold!!!
-8 degree...unbelievable!!!

row..row...row your boat...^^...

it's raining, foggy & cold!!!

this is my dear...muahh...

peace...im at Genting!!!

pose...

so tiring & exciting...best memories...

tired la baby...huhu...

Dinosaur Park...

uhh~~ it's so windy!!! so cold!!! grrr~~~

pose before going home...^^...

baby...i'm so on top of the world!!! haha...

with our ride...and my love...

last frame of the day...
fuhh~~ us so tired lo...wanna go home...
thanks so much dear for bringing me here...

(lau dear x bwa cni entah bila lg dapat kn? hehe...)


^_^

...

Don't make conclusions when you yourself is not involved in the situation
&
don't ever judge other people negatively when you yourself is acting like one...

aku gete? Thank God...^_^...

this may be harsh a lil bit...but who cares???

S bgtaw aku ada org gtau dia lau nk gete p la dgn MJ....hahaha...kenapa ko ckp mcm tue? sakit mata ker tgok kmi mesra? ko x pena gete meh ma lelaki? setahu aku dulu tme ko ada bf pun ko gete juga dgn lelaki lain kn? npa lau aku gete ko mcm mara pula? aku gete pun ada ka aku kacau hidup ko? ada??! ko rasa terganggu ka? or jeles? elehh...ketara sgt ko tu jeles...lau sakit sgt tu mata mo pandang kmi mcm ni, tutup mata la...jgn siok sgt mo tegur...ko bkn mama aku...saudara pun bukan...hidup ko sendiri x terurus mo urus hidup sa? aku da bole hidup sendiri larr...ko tu masi brgantung lg ma parents lau mo duit....pity! btw, pasal gete2 ni jgnla ckp k? aku ni diam2 jak pun lau nmpk org bergete...stay away from my privacy life...lau ko ckp2 org gete, ko tu apa kurangnya...ko jak yg tau tue...^_^...jgn nt termkn kata2 sendiri lak kn? akun jak la...ko teda org yg mau...ada pun tya tul2 bf ko tu....setia ka? oppss lupa...my parents tau aku ada bf d kl nie...hw bout u? ada ko gtau dorg ka or tapuk2? hahahha....satu lagi, lau ketara sgt aku ni gete depan2 bgus la...drpd kteorg tapuk2 mcm korg... :P buuuhhhuuuu~~~~ suda2 la tu mengata yer...jgn suka jaga tepi kain org...jgn ko berani sebut pun nama sa sbb ko x layak! urus dulu hidup ko sendiri...ko mengata org gete, bergete juga ko tu nt...
at least i'm happy being noticed & talked about....at least i know i'm famous...^_^...
chowww...

Paramore Live In Kuala Lumpur (19.10.10)

SORRY LAMBAT UPDATE BLOG...HUHU~~~


this is the ticket to Paramore concert!!!
yehaaaa baby!!!

This is the ticket worth RM168 each...

yeah...we arrived at Stadium Nasonal Bukit Jalil babe!!! ^_^

lots of people coming...and guess what? we skip the queue...hehe...

it's me (MJ), Azam & Noe...^_^...

candid time...^^...

me & Noe...cakkksss....

Noe & Azam..rocks!!!

few more minutes before the concert started...can't wait!!!
(my heart beats so fast!!)

THIS IS IT!!! FEW PICTURES TAKEN!!!!

while singing The Only Execption...^_^...

warghhhh~~~!!!!
they are really awesome!!!

LISTED SONG THEY SINGING:
Ignorance (Opening song)
Feeling Sorry
That's What You Get
For a pessimist
Emergency
Playing God
Careful
Decode

acoustic songs:
You Ain't Woman
When It Rains
Where The Lines Overlap
Misguided Ghosts

Crush Crush Crush
Pressure
Looking Up
Only Exception

Brick By Boring Brick
and last but not least...favourite song of all time;

Misery Business

that's all folks...
we really having a really BLAST night!!!

PARAMORE ROCKS THE NIGHT!!!

this memories will be kept forever...
thanks Azam...thanks Noe.. ^_^