i dont want to let him go~~~~

i really don't....

i don't want to leave him...T_T...

i'll be flying back to Sabah this 22nd of November 2009...

and it's so hard for me...

my dear Lawrence...

i really need u....

can i stay with u even longer???

can i???

pleaseee~~~

T_T

OMG!!! SNAKE!!!! SNAKE!!!

[baru dpt online...fuhh~~~ *sigh]

On 13 October 2009, me,Candy & my hubby, Lawrence went to KL Sentral....kitaorg kasi kawan Ahong nek Skybus LCCT...flight dia malam nie...tolong dia agkt brg2 dia...huhu~~ sedih ahong suda jalan dulu balik Sabah...nasib baik cuaca bagus ni ari...bye Ahong...sunyi suda sa d bilik 1 org jak....huhu~~~

Then kan, ada team dr Zoo Negara nie...dorg ada bawa

ULAR SAWA~~!!!!

Dua ekor lagi tu...satu warna coklat kehijauan yg common pya ular sawa...satu lagi warna kuning...takutt~~!!! Tapi bole bergambar dgn ular2 tue...then ada Parrot lagi...lawa!!! warna kuning ma merah...kawaiii~~~

Hihi..~~~ ^ ^ paksa hby suruh ambi gmbr...haha...best dpt bergambar ma ular....then pastue kitaorg donate la,,,hahaha,,,~~~ ni la pengalaman paling best!!! Jarang dpt gambar dgn ular tau!!!

BEST!! BEST!! BEST!! =P

1st tme dapat pegang ular!! fear factor nie...!!!

i have conquer one of my weakness....neeeee~~~~

see la lau u all berani juga pegang n brgmbr dgn ularrr....

hahaha~~~~

cute kann?? pandai dia action depan kamera...~~~hihi~~~

tgok my hby steady jak pegang ni ular~~~haha~~ ^ ^

warghhh~~~!!!! geli tu dia p kat leher!!!

haha~~ takut mj....

yelloww parrot with hby~~~

peace...~~~ble jd pirate daa~~~haha~~~

peace ~~~

neway, lau pegi mana2 zoo or anywhere [x semestinya zoo] lau nampak binatang kita layan la dengan baik...them pun ada nyawa gakk...makhluk Tuhan...milik Tuhan juga....sayangi haiwan k?? jan buli them....see...ular pun sweet jugak lau kita baik dgn them....hihi~~~

thanks member Zoo Negara~~~

bt lagi len kali k??? hehe~~~

^ ^

my VIVA....*sigh...

on 10 November i was called for VIVA...(spelling correct kaa??)..

that is today.....*sigh

woke up so early at 6a.m juat to prepare...sh*t!!! jealous saw my friends still sleepin'....hurmmm....

bath...dressed up...touch up a bit...then Noe came pick me up....

have to wait for the bus at KFC like idiot...

arrive at dental faculty...SH*T AGAIN!!!

the VIVA supposed to be at 3p.m...

then, what the hell stayin' here for hours....!!!!

DAMN!! im so angry!!!

btw, i saw ~KuYu~...^ ^...hehe....

3p.m....

there got mr.Lam, Dr.Basuri & Dr.Hana...

damn so many question from Dr.Hana....hate!!!

anyway, proud to have good result...dr Sabahan bah nie....

but it's better to do the best than be the best..

im still cool even if im failed...

why worry??? chilll~~~

daa.....

FINAL EXAM...Yuckksss!!!

done!! done!! done!!

exam bt mcm exam laa....

study+coffee+not enough sleep+maggi= ???

hahahaha...

nasib bek ada arhong ma candy jd peneman hiburan...

ada sekali tu cuma 4 jam jak tido....

hua hua hua....

yg lebih bukan stdy...on9 je byk...

tapi PAPER 1 (THEORY) & PRACTICAL EXAM da abis...

nasib bek apa yg belajar suma kuar...

nasib...nasib...

=p

btw, dpt VIVA ke x, terpulang...

x arap sgt ponn...

=p

then, x sabar nk pulang SABAH....

even dorg yg len balik lu...me x kesa....

balikla korg...me ada hby dcni...

huhuhuhuhu.....

i love my hby...^ ^

suddenly feel lonely....then angry...y???

currently listening to MLTR - Out Of The Blue....then i started to cry...again....

i just need somebody to talk to....

my bf sleep already...i have no companion...

no ring...no sms...nothing...

my hp silent...better off it...

where are my friends??

miss them so much...

then, people arguing....friends arguing each other...

moreover, there are my friends....

why small matter become bigger???

why all the bad language started to blow???

why keep blaming on each other???

can u just stop it & forgive each other???

strange....

please stop it....

please...

back to my loneliness....it's 3:05 a.m...

cannot sleep...dont know what to do...

God, help me....

i dont care what u say.....

just a story of mine i want to share with u all....

im in love with a guy named Lawrence Safenus...maybe u know him, maybe u don't...but I LOVE HIM...u know why i love him?? I don't know...my heart tell me to...he's a good guy though...so caring, so gentle, so comfort when im with him...

i knew him from iMesh last year...chatting & texting...until 11 January 2009 i met him at KL Sentral...that's what called JODOH...
i guess...i never thought i would come to KL & meet him & study in the same college together (different course)...how co-inccident is that??

he's short...smaller than me...totally different from the list of my What I Want In A Guy...but what makes him so special to me is i am really comfortable when im with him... & he love me so much...i am really grateful & thankful to God coz sending him to me...

i cry when he's not around...i feel sad coz he's about to finish his study soon & leave me alone here...then no one will taking care of me anymore...everything we do, we do it together...we go anywhere & spending a lot of time together...i share my problems with him & he's a good listener...not all guy can be a good listener as him...

im about to get 22 this Dec...im getting older...i used to chat with guys & go out with them...cant count how many of them...more than u do...i realised it takes only one man to win my heart among all the guys i've been with...

how rich a man could be or how good looking he is, it doesn't matter at all...as long as he can get good job & love me 'til i get older then it matter...a good married takes both partner to fall in love everytime they look to each others eyes...

remember my friends...someday u will agree with me & read this post over again...find a man that really can show inside of you...who knows he might be just in front of u...

i dont care what u said to us...we dont fit or suitable to each other or what, i dont care... try to fix your eyes then...u got problem...if u can change of what u see, try to change yourself...quit talking about others relationship...save your own 1st...

to Lawrence, thank you for saving my heart...i pray for our relationship & hope u do too...

I LOVE YOU...and i always be....

how a camera can take me on...x)

just see how a camera can be so manipulative...=p
hehe...taken when im bored...(^.^)...

Cervical cancer vaccinations for all girls...

KUALA LUMPUR: The Health Ministry will provide annual HPV vaccination against cervical or cervix cancer to all 300,000 13-year-old girls in Malaysia beginning next year.

The vaccinations will cost the Government RM150mil annually, Health Minister Datuk Seri Liow Tiong Lai said on Friday.

In July, Liow said his ministry was conducting a preliminary study on the impact of providing HPV (Human Papillomavirus Vaccine) for 12-13-year-old girls, as well as the economic and financial constraint on the Government.

According to the World Health Organisation (WHO), the HPV could help to reduce the incidence of cervical cancer by at least 70%.

Cervical cancer was the second most common cancer among women in Malaysia after breast cancer, Deputy Women, Family and Community Development Minister Datin Paduka Chew Mei Fun said in July.

Each day, an average of four women are diagnosed with it....

p/s: xkn 13 years old jak yg kena vaccine...=(

WHAT ???!!!! ANY IDEA ???

ini luahan hati MJ yang kebosanan yg amat !!!


orang lain da abis posa, tapi aku masih posa kat hostel...orang lain sebok cuti raya, tapi aku sebok cuti dalam bilik....tu nasib x mati keboringan !!! sh*t!!! kedai x buka...kafe x buka...apa nak makan??? k la aku tumpang gembira sebab korang dapat balik cuti raya dapat jumpa frenz & family...napa x balik raya?? ceh, tiket mahal beb!! lebih baik aku bungkus duit aku tu buat shopping dress untuk Christmas nanti...neeeee....lagi thumbs up!! haha...
then, bila da xdpt balik ne ada pula yg menyindir...siitt...cilaka!!
xpe2 ujung taun ini ble cuti puas2 kannn??? =p



bengang lagi ni...bilik aku yg kena bersihkan suma....!!!
lantai nak kena sapu...cermin nak kena lap...
baju berlambak nak kena cuci...
lom campur tandas lagi tue....(x_x)....
adi aku pon tau cuci tandas....
well, at least dpt exercise ckit...hehe...come on MJ !!
u can do it !!



nasib la ada hby cni yg dapat menemani kesunyian dalam hati...chewaa...
dpt juga jalan round2 kl....=p

huhu...
igtla bukan senang nak survive everything on your own...jangan ingat diri kuat sgt...sometimes u jatuh juga...then u have to stand up again with the help from people around u...dont forget to thank them...( apa kaitan actly??? )


k la...chowww.....

09.09.09

..i just move on to the next task...setting up teeth...
yeah...it almost finish... but yes it kinda stressing me a lot...gosh!! so hard....
my lower teeth doesn't fit...! damn!...
sometimes i hate my job so much !!!!!!

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then last MON, me n hby went to PIZZA HUT for lunch at PBD...YUMMY !!!!
( mmgla yummy lau kna blanja kannn?? hihi...=p )


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then TODAY is a very nice number...09.09.09... that's the TITLE of today...!!! so we went to KFC to celebrate it...hihi...n_n...

taken by hby...

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Daughtry - No Suprise...

i love this song from Daughtry...one of my favourite band...awesome!!!!

(And I hope.. and I hope..)
I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I'm singing louder, I love how it sounds
'Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrappin' this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise.. I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed til today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river, once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever.. just pushing it down
It felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise.. I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed til today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to save
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God knows we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The lovin' look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no..
as no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this
It's easier to see the reason why

It's no surprise.. I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed til today
(Stayed til today)
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The lovin' look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
(And I hope.. and I hope.. and I hope.. and I hope.. and I hope..)

it's true...no surprise...

yumm...yumm...

hehe...sedap ni coklat yg c noe bagi...hehe...yum..yum..
thanks noe...^-^...

A Secret Letter For S.M...

I will never forget the days we once had,
The days when you were everything to me,
My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever,
But now, I realised that was all a big dream,
The feelings I had for you will never go,
I wish I could take back that one regretful day,
The day when I let you walk away from me...
Never think of the pain of regrets,
That I have to live through...
Seeing you in someone's else arms,
Making my heart shatter into a million pieces,
I sometimes wonder if you still think of me,
Or maybe to you, I'm just a face in the crowd...

I wish that one day we can have it all back...

But now, I'm here with somebody else,
And I never wish of that anymore...
Remembering of all the memories we once shared,
Now I have to forgive & forget...

I never had any picture of you,
I just keep this secret letter,
Hoping that you would understand,
That I had loved you once; long time ago...
Now I love you as a friend...

I know it's been 4 years already...
Thanks for being there for me...
You remain in my prayer...
S.M

WHO finds Malaysians have low understanding and poor knowledge of A (H1N1)

from thestar.com.my....Sat, 29 August 2009...

KUALA LUMPUR: A report by the World Health Organisation (WHO) has revealed that Malaysians have low understanding and poor knowledge on the spread of the Influenza A (H1N1).

Health Minister Datuk Seri Liow Tiong Lai said the WHO report he received on Thursday showed the public did not take H1N1 seriously, leading to an increase in cases.

He said of the four campaigns, that on the wearing of nose and mouth masks, personal hygiene, use of sanitisers and hand cleaning, only the wearing of masks had given the public the most awareness.

"Public awareness on measures to check the spread of H1N1 is still low, despite the many campaigns held from May to Aug.

This includes high-risk groups.

"It seems that public response and awareness is still lukewarm. We cannot afford to be complacent," he told reporters after launching the "Let's Stop H1N1" campaign organised by MCA here on Saturday.

The report was filed by three WHO experts who were here to monitor the pandemic, including publicity campaigns and public response.

Liow said the ministry would continue to hold campaigns to raise public awareness via forums, talks and exhibitions with the support of the mass media, political parties and non-governmental organisations.

However, he was satisfied with the Government's proactive measures to check the spread of the virus.

"WHO knows that we have a sensitive and capable system that can trace and detect A (H1N1) patients fast. We are able to track and treat them early.

"Although the death rate in Malaysia is quite high, it is still within the WHO limit."

Malaysia has registered 71 deaths from H1N1.

He said WHO proposed that more beds be made available at intensive care units (ICU) in hospitals to accommodate high-risk patients.

"WHO's proposal will be implemented in hospitals as the number of H1N1 patients have increased."

Liow urged public transport operators to place sanitisers at terminals and distribute masks to passengers during the Hari Raya festive season to check the spread of the virus.

"The sanitisers will show passengers that the operators have high awareness of the virus," he said.

On public fears of a second wave of the A (H1N1) at year-end, that could claim more lives, Liow said hospitals had adequate supply of Tamiflu, the antiviral drug used to treat patients.-Bernama

so friends, let's help to stop H1N1...

who knows u might be the next...(palis-palis)...

stay clean,stay calm, stay healthy...

aku penat!! x selesa!!! sakit ati!!!

kalau aku cakap nanti ada org komplen lagi.. x cakap nanti kata aku seorg yg memendam perasaan... pentingkan diri...aku penattt!!!! da la gaduh dgn BF aku semlm...aku ni kuat melawan lagi... hanya sebab itu jak pun da nak gaduh... aku cakap aku x selesa tau kaa?? kita masing2 penat bha seharian di tempat keja... dari bangun jam 6... jam 7am-5pm berada d klas...lum campur kepenatan merebut bas tiap ari... da tu kat workstation banyak songeh pla budak2...(termasuk aku la tu...) hasil keja aku pn x memuaskan....payah tul la!!! yela,manada keja yg tak penat kan?? aku taula sekarang ni musim puasa...lagila org penat, xde makan, xde minum... aku faham...da lma aku faham...org bodoh je x faham... eeeeeeeeeeeee......yg penting aku sakit ati...!!! sakit ati!!! sakit ati!!! sakit ati!!!


note 4 u hby :
hny minta maaf la lau hny terkasar bahasa semlm...
hny ni x bole la lau bab gaduh2 ni...
tgok peribadi kita da masuk dlm blog...
sebab xtau nk salurkn luahan ni kat mana...
btw, hny MINTA MAAF k?
I STILL LOVE YOU...

It's A Blessed Day....

I went to church yesterday...finally...haha...after few weeks of escaping the responsibility then i realised it is the time to make a change...im not that religious person but i never forgot Jesus Christ ...i woke up at 7a.m from Candy's room then went upstairs to my room at level 6 to take a bath & be ready...i reached my room then i felt out my mug contains of leftover sticky milo on the floor...damn!! open ur eyes MJ...!!! my rumates still awake...she must be mad...

we 3 reached at the SFX church at 8.15a.m...wow!!! the altar is so nice & pretty...(see the picture)...then i felt sad for all my sins especially when i missed out every sunday mass...=( God,forgive me...Amen...

coming back from church...went to cafe for breakfast...got news...yeppie!!! my bf's 1st niece has been born...congratulations hby!!! u are officially an UNCLE now...hehehehe....ohya her name is JADE CHERYL ...my bf's sis gave that name coz her eyes is so sepettt *.* like chinese people...hehe... a new person is born...welcome to the world little girl... n_n

afternoon...6p.m...feeling lazy but have to go for a walk to Taman Jaya lo...got to do some workout...with who? with hby lo..=p hehe...go! go!

Banyakkan amalan bersedekah di bulan Ramadan - Najib

i read this from mstar online...

Sabtu,Ogos 22, 2009

KUALA LUMPUR: Perdana Menteri Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak menggalakkan rakyat Malaysia yang berkemampuan agar lebihkan bersedekah sempena bulan Ramadan yang dikenali sebagai "bulan untuk bersedekah" kepada mereka yang memerlukan.

"Adalah wajar bagi mereka yang berkemampuan memenuhi tanggungjawab mengagihkan rezeki yang diperolehi untuk membantu rakyat Malaysia yang kurang bernasib baik dan memerlukan bantuan lebih-lebih lagi dalam kegawatan ekonomi pada masa ini," katanya dalam laman web www.1malaysia.com.my.

Najib berkata: "Kegawatan ekonomi telah mengundang musibah yang membebani ramai daripada rakan taulan dan jiran kita.

Fikirkan manfaatnya jika kita berusaha untuk mengembangkan sifat dermawan tersebut di sepanjang tahun.

Perdana Menteri yang turut mengucapkan Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Puasa kepada semua umat Islam berkata: "Ramadan adalah juga waktu untuk meningkatkan kerohanian dan persaudaraan yang hebat, begitu juga dengan Malaysia yang mampu menjadi negara yang bebas dari kemiskinan jika kita komited untuk melakukannya".

Najib turut menyanjungi kemesraan dan keakraban yang dikongsi oleh semua rakyat Malaysia pada bulan Ramadan di mana rakan-rakan Cina dan India turut menikmati waktu berbuka puasa bersama-sama

"Sama ada bersesak-sesak di gerai-gerai makanan, di rumah atau makan malam di salah satu bufet yang banyak terdapat di mana-mana sahaja, mereka yang bukan Islam di seluruh Malaysia berkongsi keramahan rakan Muslim mereka," katanya.

Perdana Menteri berkata apa yang amat menyentuh perasaannya ialah sikap bukan Islam yang hormat menanti waktu azan dilaungkan dan solat dilakukan sebelum mula menjamu selera.

"Ini adalah contoh yang baik bagaimana menghargai dan meraikan kekayaan kepelbagaian etnik dan kepercayaan agama di Malaysia dan perpaduan kita sebagai satu bangsa," katanya .

Najib berkata pada Ramadan kali ini beliau merancang untuk berbuka puasa bersama-sama pelbagai lapisan masyarakat Islam di seluruh negara.

"Berkumpul beramai-ramai dengan perasaan muhibah itulah yang sentiasa kita jaga dan hargai, namun janganlah sampai kita lupa akan makna sebenar Ramadan kepada setiap Muslimin.

"Kita memohon ke hadrat Allah s.w.t agar membimbing kita ke arah amalan yang terbaik dan agar menerima ibadah dan puasa kita," katanya dan menambah kata bagi umat Islam ini adalah peluang untuk memperlihatkan semangat Islam yang sebenar kepada rakan-rakan bukan Muslim. BERNAMA

to all muslimin & musliman, SELAMAT BERPUASA...

The Fray - Never Say Never

this is a simple song yet meaningful that i wish to share with u guys...

Some things we don't talk about
better do without just hold a smile
we're falling in and out of love
the same damn problem
together all the while

you can never say never
when we don't know why time and time again
younger now then we were before

don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me go

picture you're the queen of everything
as far as the i can see
under your command
i will be your guardian when all is crumbling
steady your hand

you can never say never
when we don't know why time and time again
younger now then we were before

don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me go

we're falling apart and coming together again and again
we're coming apart but we hold it together
hold it together
together again

don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me go(x2)

thanks hby for sharing this songs with me...i will never let u go...
thanks for being with me all the time...
thanks for understands me...

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Questions For MJ...

How's your day today?
- Life is good...today me,candy n louisa went to our workstation at our faculty to do some undone work...then i saw my stone got some air bubbles inside...huhu...=( 'nvrmind' Mr.Lam said... then i learn new thing today...adapt the shellac...

How's your body condition?
- My body works fine...but tired la...then my left thumb is in pain due to the hot water...sob..sob..=(

How's your surrounding?

- hurmmm...all my clothes washed up but my room is messy, smelly & noisy...i forgot to take my medicine because i feel that i almost healthy...haha...=p

How's your SHBF?

- Him? hehe...=p that's why i cant stop loving him...u know why?......he came by this afternoon just only to see me...he's in practical nearby then escape to met me...arghhh...!! i cannot agree to this but his face is so sweet i cant stand it...hby, I LOVE U...!!!! haha...=D

What happen yesterday?

- Got function...Ministry of Health came by to our college...not so much things going on...just that my tummy is groaning & we go for food hunting at the cafe...haha...then at 5pm we go to PPUM, wait for my hby, eating waffle n honeydew...then doing carving at night, updating my facebook, chat with hby, arguing with my not-so-called-bf (S),errr.....that's all...

I heard that you hating someone..who?

- I'm not going to tell u...only me & hby knows...=p

What is the song u heard right now?

- Hero by Enrique Iglesias...nice song...=)

What is your plan for tomorrow?

- Go back to workstation, finishing my shellac, eat, sleep, meet hby... n_n ...

Do u have something else to say? I know u do...

- yeah...hurmm...i realize this somehow...someone blame me for the past...i dont know why he did that...the memories was so long ago...then i cry...=( i cry because i hate being in that situation & i never regret...i just feel grateful...then i prayed & im fine then....

- another thing, i had this little arguing with my BF...it happens a lot in this month...got something problem with our communication i guess or maybe our surroundings...or maybe he's in tension mood because of tired coming back from his work...or maybe because of ME? maybe...just want u to know hby, no matter how much we argue about things, we take that as a step of improving our relationship k? it cannot change my feelings for you...muah...

- last, 'everyone can have an effect in your life...we should trust them & take risks because someone could change our lives forever...'

..........the end.........